I told Caleb with tears rolling down my face this morning that I wish I knew him & God my whole life. I wish I could have played with his childhood dog with him, he could have had snow days off with me, I wish we were each others first kiss, and always best friends. I wish I always made decisions knowing of how much I was loved by God. I wish I would have trusted what God thought & said more than I worried about what everyone else thought about me. I can’t change the past, but that’s why I try to live the way I do now. As soon I started an all in relationship with Jesus, I didn’t want to waste any time. And I feel the same about my relationship with Caleb. Proverbs 3:5-6 & 2 Chronicles 16:9 usually come to my mind many times a day. Trust the Lord with all my heart, and that the Lord looks throughout the earth to strengthen whose hearts that are fully committed to Him. I’ve worried a lot about random things I knew God was calling me too but isn’t popular (like waiting to have sex with Caleb until marriage, sharing about God a lot, and what my profession is to name some.) I’ve had past classmates from grad school look at me so confused, Masters in Marriage & Family Therapy (along with close to a Masters in Theology) and I’m not a therapist. I was for several years, loved it, but knew God was calling me to something else & that His plans are good, even when others didn’t understand. I know its a round about way to be a wedding photographer |lifestyle blogger | relationship educator, but it’s all my passions put together & trusting God to lead me. At the end of our life we don’t answer to our haters but to God. I want to encourage you today as I encourage myself. God loves us. He wants us to live loved, thirsty for His words. We can’t see the future, but He knows. His plans for us are good, even though from our limited perspective it doesn’t always seem that way. When you feel set aside, He is setting you apart. If what you’re doing isn’t always popular, but it’s loving God & others, than awesome! Keep going and loving and serving, if you’re not, what’s holding you back? Can you relate? Love to hear from you!
